Thoughts and Dreams

Have you ever had a moment in your life where something happens, either good or bad where you are just taken by surprise? Like, did that really just happen? To me? It wasn't a scene of out a movie?? And if it was something good, you wish you could rewind and soak it in...recapture it over and over. And if it was something bad, you wish you could rewind and take it all back? I've been having moments like that lately. Don't worry, everything is fine with me and the baby!! But some things have transpired around me that have made me think about the fragility of life. I need to slow down and appreciate the here and now, and take time to be more thankful for all the blessings in my life, because we don't get the chance to rewind. We really never know what tomorrow will bring, good or bad. I think about all this stuff too much because the rumors about "Pregnancy Brain" are SO true. I have nicknamed my new state of mind "P-Brain" because I feel like such a dummy. I am scatterbrained, and forgetful, and I find myself thinking about and concentrating on things I shouldn't and other stuff, important stuff, is falling on the wayside. And then I just get so frustrated at myself!! I wish there was some sort of on/off switch where I could turn off all the unimportant things in my brain that are swirling around...and only think about important stuff! Ha ha!!

We are almost 16 weeks now! I haven't had any nausea in the last few weeks except a few random moments here and there. I'm not feeling as completely EXHAUSTED as I was before, but I never can manage to get enough sleep. Last night I got 10.5 hours, and I could have slept longer this morning! My main pregnancy symptom I've been having (other than P-Brain) is weird dreams!!! They have ranged from violent, people dying dreams, to nicer dreams about the baby. I think one of the weirdest ones yet was last night. I drempt that Jay and I were in the Civil Rights era...Jay was black and I was white. He was exactly the same, and it was for sure my Jay, but he just had dark skin. We were in public holding hands. We walked from a park into town, and so many people of both races were getting mad at us. We went to a Barbeque Restaurant, and it was really delicious, but we had to eat in seperate areas. Pretty random huh?? Every night is something different, and my dream journal that I've kept for years has been filling up faster than ever!